Why do I want to get better?
Why have I not let this horrible illness take over?
Why do I fight everyday?
Why do I not give up?
Why do I continue to try every solution, medication, physio, therapy and natural remedy there is?
Let me tell you why…
To me, healing looks like a house and being able to create a stable family home. I would like nothing more in life than to be able to have a solid place to call home. Don’t get me wrong, I love my family home and I know that I am more than welcome here for many many years to come, however, imagine having a place to be able to call your own. A place that you have worked hard for. A space you can come home too after a long day. A piece of land or a small quiet garden where you can enjoy the great outdoors.
Healing looks like owning a dog. To some, this may seem kind of silly but my dream is too have a little dog that again, I can call my own. Someone to look after and someone to look after me. Someone I can take for long walks in the country. A friend I can enjoy my time with, teach silly tricks too and play with. A life long companion.
Healing looks like being able to bring new lives into this world. This for me is a tough one and I know the road to this will probably not be easy but one day, I am fully determined to have a family. My stomach may not want me too and my body may not be on my side but I believe and I know that this is possible.
Healing to me looks like travelling. My dream is to be able to see much more of the world. For the past few years I have never been far from home and in fact, during my life so far, I have never ventured further than France. I love the UK, I love my hometown and I really do enjoy the countryside but I would love to travel and to be able to tick a safari off of my bucket list would be a dream come true.
So to sum it up, healing looks like a future. I am happy with where I am at in life and I am beyond proud of myself for what I have achieved so far and where I have got to. I know the road ahead isn’t going to be easy and I know that there is a lot of work still left to do but my ‘WHY’ is the exact reason I will not give up. I am more determined than ever to put my all into things everyday and be able to accomplish all of these things.
What is your ‘why’? What are your goals? What does healing look like to you?
As always, my inbox is open and I would love to hear from you.
All my love,